From the Soldier of Love Collection
Lost in a field of tears
Emboldened
Chasing my romantic destiny
Desperately searching for my soulmate
Each lover delivered to me
Believing she is special
That she is the One
With each fate ending in heartbreak
Between each one, taking time to heal, to breathe
Then regaining wind, retrieving the courage to rejoin the pursuit – the battlefield of love
Armed with only the belief that I deserve it – REAL LOVE
Unable to accept that I may not receive that which I deem owed
Then, I took a break
And that is when she appeared to me
My unicorn, I thought
I wasn’t looking for her
It was as if the Universe had delivered her to me
For all the pain, tears, moments of loneliness, cruel lovers I endured
For being a stand-up guy
For being a committed father, a loving son, and loyal friend
There she was: my reward
But my nightmare materialized
Within my relationship right before my eyes
She took off on her unicorn wings and left me stranded in this cold world
This time, I found no healing in that part of my heart
Healing I’d once experienced
This time, there was no joy or sorrow
That part of my heart with its enormous capacity to love
Is now just HOLLOW
I never foresaw myself becoming embittered
With so much bravery, on the battlefield I entered
But after the cruelest summer and the coldest winter
Having to accept my truest reality
That I am soldier of love and I am injured
Ronaldo Gilley 