Ronaldo Gilley

I feel like you threw me away…

When I needed you to hold on to me.

My world was chaos. I was fine with going through the storm. I only sought the comfort of knowing you’d be there – right by my side – as I walked through the fire. There was no one. I’d left everything I knew to begin something anew with you.

I faced the challenge boldly, fully aware of the struggle that lay ahead. Knowing that success and happiness was on the other side of the fire. All I needed was your hand in mine for each step. Yet, your endurance gave way, as you gave me away to the storm that engulfed me.

I thought I had a soul mate. But, as I looked around amidst the storm swallowing me, I found myself isolated – Alone.

I was destroyed – partially, at least. Were I not centered, it would have destroyed me completely. Yet today, I stand. A survivor – triumphant, yet heavy-hearted.

It has taken many years to arrive at how to describe how I feel about it all. I once thought the words were too numerous until I accepted how much you hurt me. No longer in denial –now, I know, and now I can tell if asked. I will spare you the dissertation.

In one word: Abandoned.

In short: I feel like you threw me away…when I needed you to hold on to me…when I needed you the most…when I needed you to stay.